I just read my sister's blog.
Yeah, I received nasty commentS lately, saying that I look old.. I'm fugly. I'm fat.. I’m this, I’m that..
Well.. Usually I just ignore these stupid comments or judgements or opinions whatsoever.. (cuz I kinda used to people judging me before they even know the real me). But since that comment said some nasty things about me and my mom..I can't shut up anymore..
Okay, first of all, I’m aware that my face looks naturally matured - with or without make up. With or without me wearing baju kurung, baju kerja, baju tak kerja, baju berwarna, baju takde warna, baju sekolah or whateverr baju on this earth.. so you don’t have to tell me over and over again.
Even in school, when I was in form 1, people thought I was a senior student - Form 6! Obviously, I was wearing my school uniform and wasn't wearing any make up at that time. So, no. Make up is not the reason why I look matured (bcoz some people said that).
I guess it's the tudung or scarf that makes people thought and assumed I'm a bit older than my real age. Bcuz here in Malaysia we are so used to the perceptions or mind-set that only older people wear scarf! At least that was what I’ve been told when I tell them my real age. But well, what can I do? It's a compulsory for us Muslims to wear them and I'm cool with that.. =)
Or perhaps.. it is just my very own face that looks a bit matured! So what? I’ve never said I look young and cute or whatsoever.
Secondly honey, “old” is not the word as I haven't got any wrinkles yet! ;p
And well, I kinda like it you know.. to look a bit matured. It has given me the opportunity to fool other people.
Like when I was just 14, I used my mum's cc to help her buy her stuff whenever she ain't got the time to do shopping herself. And I loved it! It was a new experience for me and I bet most 14 year olds never get the chance to use credit cards. I see that as a bonus. (I love the idea of paying by card instead of cash.. It feels like I pay nothing! ;p)
Thirdly, I know I'm a bit fat.. When did I ever say I’m skinny?? And to be honest, I hate being chubby. I can't wear and shape my scarf perfectly like my sister could! And I can't seem to wear skinny jeans or high-waisted pants, etc without me looking like a "sarung nangka!".
But that didn't stop me from dressing up. Do you expect me to mourn and dress up fugly just bcoz I’m not slim? I've always loved clothes and make up and stuff.. And that also explains why I always find myself wearing slightly older people's styles (young adults to be exact). Like, wide-leg pants, jackets, shirts, blouses, et cetera instead of wearing what most teenage girls would wear - skinny jeans, tubes, skirts, simple tshirts, sweatshirts, hooded tops, boleros, halternecks, skirts, etc..
I need to suit the way I look & my personality with my style. I can't just wear whatever that is on fashion just because everybody else is wearing them. Like for example, the skinny jeans. Most of my friends have at least one, and I don't! Does that make me “old”?
Seriously, you don't have to follow whatever is on trend even if you know you won't look great in them! Plus, I have to say that wearing scarf can be tricky if I want to look modish or up-to-date. I don't wanna lose my personal style but still, I don't wanna look like a fashion disaster too!
So that explains why I always opt for a sophisticated style rather than the cutesy-girly teenage look bcuz I personally think, my matured face suits to wear a more grown-up style. Why would you care anyway? And you know what? Despite all that, despite people saying I look fat and old, this fashion designer and the sales girls at Warehouse boutique actually compliment the way I dress up and told me they like my style. Not once, not twice. Even when I was in Paris, 2 hot Parisian ladies complimented my sister and I for the way we dressed up despite wearing scarfs (we were in the toilet touching up our makeups at that time). And there have been a few cases at the mall where people whom I don’t even know of stopped me to ask where I got my clothes, my tudung, my bag, my whatever it is I was wearing on that day. So that must’ve meant something! ;p
Btw, I have never ever said I'm a 6-foot pin-up girl.. So, what do you actually expect to see when you're viewing my page, gurl?? A skinny model with a perfect face, a perfect body, and a perfect life?? Sorry, you’ve got the wrong blog address.
I'm just a normal person, with feelings too just like you (or maybe you don’t have one)!
But well.. this is cyber space. I know you can say whatever you want to say without feeling guilty bcoz no one can track you. No one knows if it was you who left such nasty comments except yourself. After all, you did leave a comment anonymously. You’re scared of being tracked, is it? What’s the point of saying those things when you’re such a coward to reveal yourself? What are you trying to prove? Or is it like your own “guilty pleasure”, saying bad things about other people? It just shows your personality and your quality as a human being, you know. And what’s worse is that, you know it’s you. You can’t pretend you don’t know it.
Fyi, this is not the first time I came across people like you. Trust me, I sooo KNOW these kinds of people! I've met them my whole life. (schools, matric, university)
Kutuk orang sana, kutuk orang sini.. But at the end of the day, they will eventually like/love that poor little person. Or at least, they'll become like the person that they used to kutuk. I’ve seen it myself. Allah itu Maha Adil. Like, “those people” who used to kutuk and hated me so much, now came to me and seek for my word of advice on whatever things they wanna know or want to take advantage of. Seriously, aren't you ashamed of yourself? You used to hate me, and make fun of me being a girly-girl or rather “gedik” in my own way and stuff, and then suddenly you want my advice on shoes? And make up? *sighh*
And what surprised me the most is that you want to actually be my friend – after all these years?? I thought you hated me so much? (I’m not pointing fingers but siapa makan cili, dia la terasa pedas).
I can name a few of them here and now, or maybe attack them back like they did to me, but for what? I know my values. And that differentiates between me and YOU! I am not like you, who make fun of other people's interest or beliefs. Sukati la orang nak suka/buat apa asalkan tak kacau hidup orang lain. Why should that bother you? Why do you care so much if that person is not like what u want them to be?? Unless of course, if you love them. That’s a whole different story then.
THIS IS MY BLOG. It's about ME; my likes and dislikes. It’s not about “what you think”, or about your likes and dislikes. So do yourself a favour, just like what I normally do when I don’t like a particular blog (hey, I’m human too). Stop reading my blog if you loathe it. Bcoz really, what good does it gives you by hating and condemning others? The more you visit and read those blogs that you hate, the more negativity surrounds you. You’re circulating negative vibes all around you and that’s what you’re getting more of every day. And just because you have a miserable, empty and unfulfilled life, doesn't mean you gotta make others feel horrible or bad just like you, woman!
P/s: Is there a set of standards kalau jadi Datin, u gotta have a set of rambut bulat mcm Doraemon or pakai tudung selendang with super bright red lipstick, gelang and cincin bertan2 macam kedai emas bergerak?? I never knew that.
Just so you know, my mom is a very verry simple woman! Even if she does look like a makcik kampung, so what?? What's wrong with being a makcik or makcik from kampung?? Siapa ckp bandar tu bagus sgt??
To others, please excuse this PMS lady,will ya?!