Hmm.. I was really really shock, happy, surprised, and all sorts of bercampur aduk kind of feelings.. when I received a text message from daddy when he was in China last, last Thursday. I really don't know how to describe this feelings. The moment I read his text message that he sent to me, I immediately cried (happy and terharu at the same time) and thus said my prayers to God cuz terasa bersyukur sangat sangat.. And then I looked up (in the sky) as if I was 'talking' to God (I know, Ha ha) and said thank you and stuff...
Goshh.. I feel so grateful to be given this chance! Alhamdulillah..
Well, 3 days before my dad sent me the message, I dreamt about Kaabah. And in my dream, I woke up around noon or something (in my current room) ..and then I felt weird because I heard like some noises outside my window.. (just so you know, the window that I'm talking about, is facing some other houses, tapi rumah rumah tu semua dekat bawah sikit.. Just nampak their roofs je la. So basically kalau betul betul - in real life I mean, memang tak akan dengar apa apa bunyi lah except for burung burung berkicauan or whatever..) So, I thought it was weird..so I walked to the window to open and see if there's anything.. Seriously, the dream felt so real because all the things that are in my room like my curtains, the cabinet and my stuff were all in my dream!
So this is the view from the window that I'm talking about..
So then, when I heard the noises, I opened the window and felt weird to see that huge black box, which is Kaabah in the middle of that white floor, instead of these houses/roofs.. right in front of my eyes! It was really not very far from my house! Like, only a few metres away.. It's like my room was in that Masjidil Haram.. And I saw people performing tawaf and stuff.. I felt really weird and I was confused...because that room is obviously in KL but it's like I was in Mecca...
And then I woke up feeling weird. And blur. But I didn't expect anything. Hmm...
And then later, 3 days after that dream, I received a text message from daddy saying, "We'll be going to Jeddah on 31st until 7th (the date has been changed to 6th till 17th, btw). So go and get your picture taken asap. And fill in the form for the visa. Tomorrow Asmadi will collect all the things needed for the visa from you. Thanks".
Seriously, saya terkejut sangat sangat! Well.. To be honest with you, for years and years, I have been praying to God to give me another chance to visit the holy land again and again and again, and to perform as much ibadah/umrah as I could. The last time I went there was like 6 or 7 years ago.. And I really really missed Mecca so much. I missed the feelings when I was there. It was so peaceful.
So everyday, I would be praying to Him to give me another chance to go there again..And Alhamdullillah, Allah granted my wish! Sungguh tak sangka dapat panggilan to Mekah, again! Alhamdullilah! Rasa macam nak nangis jer.. heee.
It's really really a different feeling when we're there. So I really really want to have that feeling again, and to see Kaabah and to just sit in the Masjidil Haram peacefully.. (Okay fine..not just sit, but to perform ibadah, of course). Because when you are there, there is nothing on your mind but Allah, love, peace, hope, serenity, belief, and comfort. You care about nothing in the world and you just cry out of all the flow of feelings inside you.. tskk =/
I remembered the last time I went there, the moment I saw the black giant squared box in the center of the floor, I was mesmerized by the view and my eyes was magnetized to the Kaabah.. Seriously, what a magnificent view! It's really really different from seeing it on the telly or Youtube or pictures or whatever! Every time I went inside the Masjidil Haram and saw the Baitullah, it really felt like it's my first time seeing it! Yes, every single time masuk masjidil haram! Such an amazing feeling! I mean, how can a black giant squared box, would look so amazing and breathtakingly beautiful??!! Macam asik nak tengokkkkkkkk jer tak nak kelip mata. Ha, macam tu la the feeling! That's how beautiful it is!
So beautiful. So peaceful.
Anyway, Insyallah, I will be going to the holy land tonight. Will be there for about 10 days. Pray for my health and well being. And I really hope that everything will go on smoothly and easy for me. Do pray for me, guys!